So I graduated. What an amazing time! Getting to move on and do what I want to do! no more books! No more perfectly assigned classes! For a while at least until I get off my mission, but that's the thing about graduation that I've come to hate: everyone moving away.
Until my senior year I never had solid friends. I've had friends that never really stayed more than a school year or no friends at all, but this past year I have made the most amazing friends I could ever have! you know who you are, guys. I love them so much! yeah we each have had our rough spots in our friendships but I still love them! you have taught me in one school year what a real friend is. you have taught me who I can trust, how to trust, how to have fun and so many other things!
All of this is coming to end it seems, though. Some are moving away, some are still in school. and now I'm afraid to be alone again. I'm afraid that I'll never find you guys again or anyone that has treated me as well as you have. Nobody can be you. you each have a special place in my heart that I can love and cherish each of you, but what comes with that is pain. pain and fear of losing what we have as friends. afraid of losing connection and not having the great support I have gotten from you guys this past year.
Now that I'm Graduated it's strange to see everything change in an instant: friends hurting one another more than before, friends moving away, friends leaving to do what I am planning on doing myself and serving a mission. it seems as if you guys all have made me better than you know.
Each smile, each joke, hug, laugh, playful fight, sassing, service to and from each other, and the love you all have given me this past year I will never forget. they High School is the greatest time of your lives. well they are wrong because it is not High school that has been the greatest part of my life, but my friends. I will never forget any of you. In my mind you are a select group. you are small but mighty in my eyes. as we move on with our lives I will miss you guys. this is not a final goodbye because I know I will see you all again, but I will miss you guys because of all you have done for me in one year that I wish I could have had for many years before.
Thank you for all you do for me. thank you for making me better. stronger, more loving, kind, and outgoing. You are all the best of friends I will ever need in life. Thank you for the memories, even if they weren't so great. thank you so much because I will look back on all the memories I have of each of you and I will think of you as the leaders of my life: the proud, the bold, the few, the amazing friends of honor.
I love you all once again. DON'T DIE! Stay Frosty. and just be you in all you do.
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Monday, January 26, 2015
Hair Cuts and Love Letters
Let me just start off by saying that I am spontaneous. If you don't know me or haven't figured it out by now, that is just who I am. I love doing random and awesome things to make people's day. Sometimes I do make people angry, but I just brush them off and keep being who I am. As my great friend always says, "you do you, bro," and I try to do just that.
This weekend, in fact, I did something absolutely amazing, and I hope I made some one's day. Well, to start off I started to sign up for a site called Hulu. I'm sure plenty of you have heard of it but just in case you haven't it's a lot like Netflix just it is updated more regularly. So, I sign up for it hoping to get the one week free that it was advertising for, yet little did I know that I needed a credit card to make that happen.
I didn't put it in 'cause I don't have one, and the next day they send me this E-mail...
Well, being my awesome self, not to brag or nothing I'm just going along with what my friends say, i sent them this E-mail...
So, the address I sent it to had an auto return e-mail saying something about if I had questions that I should contact support. I deleted that message knowing someone would actually read my letter, and the next day this is what I get in return...
I really hope Ross doesn't mind me using his name. But I do hope it made his day or any body's day.
I mentioned a friend before, the one who says, "You do you, bro." She is also the person who gives me hair cuts. Now I know what you are thinking, "What!? Gives sage advice and gives awesome cuts too!?" Let me tell you, she is the best in the hair cutting business. She gets my cut perfect every time! And no I am not exaggerating. Well I'm only bragging because I got a great cut from her this past week that allows me to feel and look great! And that's not an exaggeration either.
I love my friends. I am so very thankful for how much they care for me. Even theough the days that I have mental break downs and the days that I am bouncing off the walls annoying them to death I'm sure. They are such a blessing in my life and I don't know what I would do without them. I know that as Christ Loves all of us as his children I should do the same. I know that he wants me to bring peace to others through my friendship. I've lost friends that I wish I could still have and I hope they still know that I do love them. I know that Christ is always by my side as I draw near to him. I'm so very greatful for the talents he has given me and the opportunities he gives me to better those tallents. I know he wants you to be happy and I know for a fact that his hand is always there when you need it and are ready to take it. He will forgive you as you seek for it and wish to push away the wrong doings we may have done. He is my greatest friend that I hope to come closer to as I live my life.
Joshua 1:9
Don't die.
And stay frosty.
This weekend, in fact, I did something absolutely amazing, and I hope I made some one's day. Well, to start off I started to sign up for a site called Hulu. I'm sure plenty of you have heard of it but just in case you haven't it's a lot like Netflix just it is updated more regularly. So, I sign up for it hoping to get the one week free that it was advertising for, yet little did I know that I needed a credit card to make that happen.
I didn't put it in 'cause I don't have one, and the next day they send me this E-mail...
Well, being my awesome self, not to brag or nothing I'm just going along with what my friends say, i sent them this E-mail...
So, the address I sent it to had an auto return e-mail saying something about if I had questions that I should contact support. I deleted that message knowing someone would actually read my letter, and the next day this is what I get in return...
I really hope Ross doesn't mind me using his name. But I do hope it made his day or any body's day.
I mentioned a friend before, the one who says, "You do you, bro." She is also the person who gives me hair cuts. Now I know what you are thinking, "What!? Gives sage advice and gives awesome cuts too!?" Let me tell you, she is the best in the hair cutting business. She gets my cut perfect every time! And no I am not exaggerating. Well I'm only bragging because I got a great cut from her this past week that allows me to feel and look great! And that's not an exaggeration either.
I love my friends. I am so very thankful for how much they care for me. Even theough the days that I have mental break downs and the days that I am bouncing off the walls annoying them to death I'm sure. They are such a blessing in my life and I don't know what I would do without them. I know that as Christ Loves all of us as his children I should do the same. I know that he wants me to bring peace to others through my friendship. I've lost friends that I wish I could still have and I hope they still know that I do love them. I know that Christ is always by my side as I draw near to him. I'm so very greatful for the talents he has given me and the opportunities he gives me to better those tallents. I know he wants you to be happy and I know for a fact that his hand is always there when you need it and are ready to take it. He will forgive you as you seek for it and wish to push away the wrong doings we may have done. He is my greatest friend that I hope to come closer to as I live my life.
Joshua 1:9
Don't die.
And stay frosty.
Monday, January 19, 2015
A New Chapter... Starting With a Mental Break Down
Before I start anything, yes, guys do have mental break downs. It's normal. We get stressed, we start to over think, so on and so forth. Y'all know the stages. But let's start off with something happy!! So, I am a member of the LDS Church, and what i have a pleasure of doing is giving up two years of my life to serve the Lord. AND I'M SO PUMPED!! Yesterday I started the paper work needed to go on my mission. And I couldn't help but laugh all the way home from the bishop's office I was so happy that I am going to be able to serve others and the Lord for two WHOLE years. And not seeing my mom and dad isn't even the least bit bothering me... What is bothering me though is not being able to see my brother, Geordan(pronounced Jordan) for 4 whole years.
Geordan has been serving in Africa for the past two years and will be coming home this October. But I may be leaving before that. And if so, I'm gonna miss him even more than I already am....
But life, as I have mentioned before, is not all hunky dory. I've had some rough patches and will continue to have them. I don't know why but I have a major fear, a phobia if you will, that my friends aren't who they say they are. Maybe it's because I didn't have friends from 3rd to about 9th or 10th grade. Or maybe I'm just a worry wart. I don't know. But I'm constantly afraid that my friends will not be there for me, as I want to be there for them.
Well, this last Saturday I gave into this fear and started to believe that NOBODY was ever going to be there for me. I feared that all my friends didn't truly like me and were just faking it all. Yes, I know some of you are reading this now thinking, "I'll always be there. Just shoot me a text or call me when you need it!" But, it's not that simple on my side. On my side I want to believe that and want to do just that but I'm so afraid of it being true that I'm paralyzed in a state of self torment.
I think this fear comes from all those years of being alone. I would mope the school grounds, in 3rd grade may I remind you, thinking that nobody loved me, nobody wanted me around, nobody wanted to be my friend. Some days I thought about killing myself even(no not as a third grader but when I was a little older).
On those days though I suddenly didn't feel so alone. I felt like someone did love me and cared enough that I was here on earth, and as I look back on those dark, wretched days I see that someone did love me. It wasn't anyone at school. Nobody I knew at church no, i knew that Christ loved me and was there with me. I know now that he loves me and each one of us. He LOVES US. All of us are his children and he loves each and every single one of us. He wants us to succeed. He wants us to rise above temptations and despair. He wants us to know that he is there next to us cheering us on. And he does it. BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU. He. Loves. You. I know that for a fact and that he will send a feeling, a friend, a parent, a guardian. Something somehow to tell you that he loves YOU! And I know he went through everything for you. So that you will be strong until the end... Joshua 1:9. I love you guys. Never give up. You are so precious and you are worth every second in a life time.
Stay frosty.
Geordan has been serving in Africa for the past two years and will be coming home this October. But I may be leaving before that. And if so, I'm gonna miss him even more than I already am....
But life, as I have mentioned before, is not all hunky dory. I've had some rough patches and will continue to have them. I don't know why but I have a major fear, a phobia if you will, that my friends aren't who they say they are. Maybe it's because I didn't have friends from 3rd to about 9th or 10th grade. Or maybe I'm just a worry wart. I don't know. But I'm constantly afraid that my friends will not be there for me, as I want to be there for them.
Well, this last Saturday I gave into this fear and started to believe that NOBODY was ever going to be there for me. I feared that all my friends didn't truly like me and were just faking it all. Yes, I know some of you are reading this now thinking, "I'll always be there. Just shoot me a text or call me when you need it!" But, it's not that simple on my side. On my side I want to believe that and want to do just that but I'm so afraid of it being true that I'm paralyzed in a state of self torment.
I think this fear comes from all those years of being alone. I would mope the school grounds, in 3rd grade may I remind you, thinking that nobody loved me, nobody wanted me around, nobody wanted to be my friend. Some days I thought about killing myself even(no not as a third grader but when I was a little older).
On those days though I suddenly didn't feel so alone. I felt like someone did love me and cared enough that I was here on earth, and as I look back on those dark, wretched days I see that someone did love me. It wasn't anyone at school. Nobody I knew at church no, i knew that Christ loved me and was there with me. I know now that he loves me and each one of us. He LOVES US. All of us are his children and he loves each and every single one of us. He wants us to succeed. He wants us to rise above temptations and despair. He wants us to know that he is there next to us cheering us on. And he does it. BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU. He. Loves. You. I know that for a fact and that he will send a feeling, a friend, a parent, a guardian. Something somehow to tell you that he loves YOU! And I know he went through everything for you. So that you will be strong until the end... Joshua 1:9. I love you guys. Never give up. You are so precious and you are worth every second in a life time.
Stay frosty.
Monday, January 12, 2015
Life is Like a Champion Boxer
Life aint no box of chocolates! I loath that saying. It's more like a Champion boxer: Rough, tough, quick and unpredictable. Life will help you up the starirs only to push you back down and laugh. But I'm guessing that you knew that. I'm only sayin' it because this past week hasen't been the greatest for me.
This past week was a major milestone for me in recovering from an addiction. A horrible horrible addiction that has caused me pain for over 5 years. This last week though was the 3 weeks strait of me being clean from the addiction. It's wasn't easy, but it was definetly worth it.
Well, a few more days go buy and I feel great! The happiest I've ever been! I was thankful at first but slowly became prideful as the days went on, and this is where life pushed me back down the stairs.
I gave into my addiction once again, that sunday afternoon. I hated myself. So many evil thoughts flooded my mind. Many of those things were self harming or suicidal. I didn't want to be strong anymore. I turned my back on what this blog is all about and just wanted to give in, but I didn't.
That night, as many nights I have had like that, i felt Christ's love for me through others. They don't know what they did for me but I thank God for putting them into my lives. They helped me gain that strength to get on my knees and ask for fogiveness.
Today I was still feeling guilty for what I had done, as is natural after doing something you know to be wrong, and that humility helped me learn something new. I learned that life isn't just going to bruskly stop you with problems. But is going to flow like music with no words. Or a boxer with a fluid pattern. There will be drops in the music, jabs to the face, soft melodic melodies and rock hard beats. Each part of it is beautiful, each jab giving you that boost to get through the fight. Unless you let those jabs push you down. With each fight we win, we grow stronger, more knowledgeable on how to live our lives. And over all I learned this week. The biggest would have to be just to go with the flow and dance both to the fast and slow.
I so hope that you guys can have that strength to get through life's rough days. To find that friend who will help you and for you to be their hope in life as well. For as we are strong in Christ, christ shall be strong in us.
Joshua 1:9
Stay frosty!🌌
This past week was a major milestone for me in recovering from an addiction. A horrible horrible addiction that has caused me pain for over 5 years. This last week though was the 3 weeks strait of me being clean from the addiction. It's wasn't easy, but it was definetly worth it.
Well, a few more days go buy and I feel great! The happiest I've ever been! I was thankful at first but slowly became prideful as the days went on, and this is where life pushed me back down the stairs.
I gave into my addiction once again, that sunday afternoon. I hated myself. So many evil thoughts flooded my mind. Many of those things were self harming or suicidal. I didn't want to be strong anymore. I turned my back on what this blog is all about and just wanted to give in, but I didn't.
That night, as many nights I have had like that, i felt Christ's love for me through others. They don't know what they did for me but I thank God for putting them into my lives. They helped me gain that strength to get on my knees and ask for fogiveness.
Today I was still feeling guilty for what I had done, as is natural after doing something you know to be wrong, and that humility helped me learn something new. I learned that life isn't just going to bruskly stop you with problems. But is going to flow like music with no words. Or a boxer with a fluid pattern. There will be drops in the music, jabs to the face, soft melodic melodies and rock hard beats. Each part of it is beautiful, each jab giving you that boost to get through the fight. Unless you let those jabs push you down. With each fight we win, we grow stronger, more knowledgeable on how to live our lives. And over all I learned this week. The biggest would have to be just to go with the flow and dance both to the fast and slow.
I so hope that you guys can have that strength to get through life's rough days. To find that friend who will help you and for you to be their hope in life as well. For as we are strong in Christ, christ shall be strong in us.
Joshua 1:9
Stay frosty!🌌
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Pilot
For my first post I would like to introduce myself to anyone who reads this. But, where to start?
I guess I'll start off with the simple things. My name is Joshua Hunter Peterson, but most people call me Hunter or Bunter(hence the URL). I am an 18 year old priesthood holder of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints(most people know us as Mormons). In the coming up years I plan to start serving a two year mission. To where I will be serving I have no clue, but I am hoping it has a small town feel and isn't cold. I'm not fon of being cold. I was born and raised in Arizona for all my life(excluding the one year I lived in Idaho). I was also born and raised in the Church. Although raised as a Mormon I haven't alwaysed belived the Church to be true.
For quite a while I didn't belive in what I was taught. I would go to church meetings, I would listen to the lessons, but At that time I felt that it wasn't true. I don't know what I did to change myself but one day, or if it happened gradually I do not know, I changed. I felt God's love for me and how much He wanted me to run back to him and hug him. The day I felt that was one of the days that I was in the darkest places I have ever been. But it was also the brightest. That day was the first day in many years I had gotten on my knees to talk personally with God.
Since then I have fallen to the same place and every time God has given me the strength to overcome those sins. He gave that strength by either comforting me with his spirit, a scripture, or a friend to talk to. This strength is also one of the few reasons I started this blog: to give hope and strength to those who need it from my experiences. Because I know that God loves each and every one of his children and that we are all His children. That weare all brothers and sisters.
So although I may not know you, I still love you with all of my heart.
So stay frosty!
Joshua 1:9
I guess I'll start off with the simple things. My name is Joshua Hunter Peterson, but most people call me Hunter or Bunter(hence the URL). I am an 18 year old priesthood holder of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints(most people know us as Mormons). In the coming up years I plan to start serving a two year mission. To where I will be serving I have no clue, but I am hoping it has a small town feel and isn't cold. I'm not fon of being cold. I was born and raised in Arizona for all my life(excluding the one year I lived in Idaho). I was also born and raised in the Church. Although raised as a Mormon I haven't alwaysed belived the Church to be true.
For quite a while I didn't belive in what I was taught. I would go to church meetings, I would listen to the lessons, but At that time I felt that it wasn't true. I don't know what I did to change myself but one day, or if it happened gradually I do not know, I changed. I felt God's love for me and how much He wanted me to run back to him and hug him. The day I felt that was one of the days that I was in the darkest places I have ever been. But it was also the brightest. That day was the first day in many years I had gotten on my knees to talk personally with God.
Since then I have fallen to the same place and every time God has given me the strength to overcome those sins. He gave that strength by either comforting me with his spirit, a scripture, or a friend to talk to. This strength is also one of the few reasons I started this blog: to give hope and strength to those who need it from my experiences. Because I know that God loves each and every one of his children and that we are all His children. That weare all brothers and sisters.
So although I may not know you, I still love you with all of my heart.
So stay frosty!
Joshua 1:9
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